Hope

So yesterday I went online and applied for a "real job". Honestly I have mixed feelings about this. On the one hand, it's financially beneficial for my family. But on the other hand, I really enjoy staying home with my kids. But I think it is a good idea. It will be nice to have a little bit of money to do some of the things that I have decided to try when I can afford it. I would like to make some of my own cosmetics, but I can't afford some of the ingredients that I want/need. 
Also, this will be good for me, a way to hopefully make friends, build my network. But if I am going to go back to work I need to get my butt in gear and get my living room walls finished asap. 
So much to think about, but its time for me to call it a night and head to bed. Think about it all tomorrow.